Un Perdant - This battle seems a losing one
All I thought was that it will be vivid forever. I thought it won’t die out. I thought I saw the right one.
But it seems that everything would be an upcoming sinister deep within my core. The affection I’m feeling is vanishing little by little as days approach and nights enfold me. I can hardly discern the real reason behind the coldness which forces the comfortable warmth to back-off from the battlefield. The warmth which gives me the vigor to fight even if it feels like there’s no chance in winning.
I really can’t figure out why does this dilemma happen. I can’t decipher whether it happens because I just don’t want you anymore or it happens because you can’t prove to me that you’re really sincere and you can’t prove to me that I’m the one.
I want us to fix this problem immediately before it will become worse. Your absence hurts me more than a knife protruding into my heart. It hurts not to see you around. It hurts not to talk to you. It hurts when I miss you. I miss you more than everything in this world. I have to admit, you’re really my weakness.
I don’t wanna lose this once in a lifetime chance. I hate losing the good memories we built up together in the past. I hate losing everything that I can have when I’m with you. Most especially, I hate losing you……
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